"STRANGER IN THE MIRROR"

STOPPING TO SMELL THE ROSES

Um, well, maybe not so much. That is what I should be doing. I have to learn how to do that, effectively.

I will admit that I suck at relaxing. I can't give up the reins on any project because I am an absolute control freak. Type "A" control freak at that. It is a horrible burden to bear. Thank you, I bear it for all of us. All the time. WTF!!!

In light of my recent 28 hour hospital stay I must learn to just let it all go. The old "it is what it is" theory. Yeah right! That will happen soon, NOT! However, it must. Something has to give as the old saying goes. Ooops, something did give. Me.

Seriously, am I alone in this? Can all of you Internet friends relax? If so, give me some pointers. I am being serious when I say that I just can't do it.  I swear, I've tried. I used to needlepoint and there are not enough walls to put all the crap that I have spent a bazillion dollars framing. I tried pottery, reading, puzzle books, and a myriad of other very expensive relaxing type hobbies. I've got nothing. They all bring me back to my ADD/Hyperactive/controlling self. Maybe I need to be hypnotized.

I find myself getting anxious just talking about this whole relaxing thing.  I swear, I believe that I even find things to do in my sleep.

LIVING LARGE

It has been awhile since I've checked in on this blog site. Let's just say I've been a tad bit busy.

In addition to the hubs having a few minor setbacks as of late, I actually had to have one of my own. While it was totally "out of the blue" and very surprising given my awesome health it happened none the less. Let that be a lesson to you not to take your health for granted. Boy, I sure did.

Hubs issues left us all drained for the entire last couple of weeks. Working, not much sleep, and very little eating. I guess you could say it almost did me in.

I awoke last Tuesday, actually it would have been Wednesday already, at around 1:30 A.M. with a strange feeling. No pain, just a very weird feeling. It was mainly in my jaw. It felt like I had just eaten some sour patch kids. That tingly feeling you get when you eat something sour. I got up. Drank some water and tried to go back to sleep. Now, I am in the medical field and so my intuition told me to go to emergency. I am usually off on Wednesdays and I had a lot of things planned for the day. I really did not want to waste a whole day being any kind of ill. Hey, I have my priorities. I really do!

Anywho, I got dressed and drove myself the 8 or so blocks to the nearest hospital. Calmly walked in and explained my symptoms. The next thing I knew they were breaking out the EKG machine and doing tests. Long story short I ended up having an artery on the right side of my heart blocked by 99%. Oh yes I did. Did I mention that I DO eat well and that I am an exercise freak? Yes, well apparently that is a good thing because it truly saved my life. No heart damage, no lung damage either. I do however have not 1 but 2 stents in my right artery. Scary shit! Let me tell you I was never so scared in my life!

So, all you ladies out there it is true when they tell you that woman really do not always have heart attack symptoms. It just happened. BTW, I also only weigh 118 lbs at 5'4", so I am not overweight either. Go figure. All I can say is that I am a firm believer that stress can kill. I will now become a "poster woman" for stress. Breathe, breathe, I have to keep telling myself because I really am a very hyperactive Type A personality control freak!

I am learning to smell the roses. It isn't easy but I sure am trying.

BLOG?

OMG....I forgot I had a blog. Seriously, with Facebook, shut up, I am not too old. It is my way of keeping in touch with loved ones. OK? Satisfied? I'm not stalking anyone. Maybe. Oh, then there is Twitter and who knows what else.

I do read blogs too. Yes, every single day and I think it is becoming an obsessive compulsive habit. Just sayin'.

My life is still a "shitstorm"! Hey, that's how we do it here. No drama, no life. Sorry, just telling it like it is.

BTW, can someone please tell me what the hell happened to summer? Did we really have one? Where has the time gone? Is that what happens when you get older?

Anywho, I hope that everyone has a very happy Monday!